Your book was very enlightening. Although I admit to be one of the the 15 or 16 year olds who you cannot believe are on Prozac (even though it is not Prozac that I am on, I feel all antidepressants apply) I appreciate your book.
What I couldn't understand was how in the world it could take so long for doctors to realize that you're chemical and not situational.
I actually don't know how to feel after reading your book. I don't know if I should feel like I'm not alone, or that I'm justified, or that I'm okay. Or if I should feel like I'm going to be some sort of crazy for the rest of my life. Because I know that that is true. Depression doesn't just go away. But I do think that your book was helpful to me even if I'm not really sure exactly how. Maybe that when I am feeling and acting crazy that it's okay because it's not actually me. It's my stupid brain. That's a little reassuring. But people without depression will still need to be reminded that my mental disorder is not my fault and that it causes me to act certain ways.
There is one thing I would like to say to you that really stood out to me while reading "Prozac Nation". I am so jealous that it is in study that you found solace and could lose yourself from depression. I am the opposite and it is often an added overwhelming factor that I am getting so far behind in school from missing days and not feeling smart enough or whatever the case that day may be. Even though I know I am smart. I'm just creative smart. Not class smart. When I hit a brick wall in school I shut down. Then that causes and episode usually. I admire and am jealous of your motivation to do schoolwork even when it was irrationally so. But I suppose we all have things to be jealous of other people for.
Also, I remembered that there was one more thing I was thinking to myself while reading your book. If I had not been raised LDS I know our stories would be more a like. I know I would have turned to drugs to make me happy. And surrounding myself with anything that would make me feel good in the moment. I know we would have been similar there if I hadn't been raised with a better conscience. And I'll admit that sometimes I am jealous that I cannot turn to fake happiness to cure my current sadness. And I know that will sound ridiculous to non depressives. But so will this whole letter and probably your whole book.
Sincerely,
Kaylyn
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